work, has always been a blessing to me.. yes! i am happy being busy but still because of it i have missed a lot of things.. but i am not complaining just because it is now one of my priorities.. ..and i just have to dwell on this fact..
i miss my friends very much.. especially teetay, i don't know that much about her anymore.. we always have our kamustahans, we still have it now.. but i think it isn't enough to ask "how she's been".. it's so sad to think that all the while i thought she's okay and that she's happy as she looks.. but when i read about her blog and how her day has been.. makasad.. i wish was there for her when she felt alone.. and not fine about everything.. i'm sorry that sometimes i forget that hours turn to days and days turn to weeks and so on.. i'm just missing out in a lot of things lately.. i guess i am not being "the bestfriend" that i should have been..
"knowing" i miss.. i super do.. i am not happy that i have missed out a lot.. like family affairs and gimiks with friends because of work.. but things are different now.. i am not always available anymore like before.. even i myself haven't fully accepted this yet.. i think this is the price i pray for being "not a child" anymore.. for growing up.. for having a job.. for the CHANGE that happened not only to me but to everybody included..
i am going to be in a Manila for 5-6weeks.. i am not happy about this because all the while i thought it would only be for 2 weeks.. i will miss a lot from my usual not routinary daily itineraries in the field at work.. most of it feels like "sayang".. because it would be in a status quo since i would be away.. plus again.. i would be missing out the whole month of July in Davao.. a whole month without teetay.. a whole month without my baby brother Danyal, who changes the word "tired" to "have-i-been-to-work-all-day?" (because when he smiles.. the world just stops and i just can't help but to adore him more..)
Manila has always been special to me.. i have always liked it because i have never stayed too long for me to miss home.. but then again.. things now are different! and this includes my perspective about Manila.. i used to be so giddy whenever i have a scheduled flight going there.. now? not anymore.. this time, it would be my first time to go there alone and my longest most probably.. my first time for the reason that it would be my orientation-slash-training for work.. my first time to be really independent! a one whole month of just ME and my JOB - that i labeled my new love.. ahhh! so many firstS.. such a different feeling..
i wish work could be just like school.. where you can choose who you want to be with the whole day.. and if i get to choose who to bring and who to spend the whole day with.. it wouldn't be surprising to say that it's teetay..
and teetay - i wish to be sitted next to you on your ielts class and make new friends together in that new class! and laughed at ROY, if it was really him you saw.. just like our 2nd year in college, when we even cry together in the cr over silly boys and their cruelty! HAHAHA!
..and hey! i miss you a lot! i really DO! i love you! (and yep! things are different now.. except this! and me and you! ..mmwah! :*)
Although we like to think that the people in our lives are well-adjusted, happy, healthy minded individuals, we sometimes realize that it just isn't so. Personally, I've had moments where I'll be skipping through my day, happy as can be, thinking life is grand and BAM, I'll be blindsided by someone who manages to knock the happy wind out of my sails. Sometimes it is easy to write it off and other times, not so much.
Maybe you are a positive person, but when you are around a certain individual, you feel negative. Or, maybe you have an idealistic view of the world and when you are with certain people, you are made to feel silly, unrealistic or delusional. Or, maybe you pride yourself in being completely independent and in control of your life, but when you are around a certain family member, you regress into a state of childhood.
Some of these situations, and yes, these people, can have a tremendously negative impact on our lives. And, although we are all human and have our 'issues,' some 'issues' are quite frankly, toxic. They are toxic to our happiness. They are toxic to our mental outlook. They are toxic to our self-esteem. And they are toxic to our lives. They can suck the life out of us and even shorten our lifespan.
Here are the worst of the toxic personalities out there and how to spot them:
1.ManipulativeMary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.
Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.
2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."
Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.
3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.
Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.
4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.
Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.
5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.
Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.
6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.
Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.
7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.
Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.
8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.
Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.
All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.
Frankly, life is too short to spend your time dealing with toxicity. If you can, avoid spending mucho time with people who are indicative of these behaviors and you'll feel a lot happier. Have you encountered these personalities? What have you done? Any personalities you would add?
- before starting my report to my boss, here's something i read from Yahoo that i would like to share to everyone!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
1. i have been collecting Winnie the Pooh & friends since grade 5, now i have a shrine of them in my room.
2. i love my time-alone, it is my own break from the world.
3. i like going to the beach but i am afraid of getting a tan. yes! takot ako sa araw!
4. i hate the feeling of "missing someone", it is the only thing i cannot set my mind not to do.
5. everytime i wake up in the morning, the first thing i do is clean my room.
6. at the age of 8, i was diagnosed with weak lungs, i think that i will die early.
7. i still watch cartoons, my favorites are Tom & Jerry, Spongebob Squarepants and Family Guy. i loathe anime.
8. there are only 2 meals i know how to serve, the sizzling fish, my tita taught me and the hotdogs with sauce my barkada loves to eat with bread.
9. i don't like crying, whenever i do i go to the bathroom and take a bath instead.
10. once, a mother of someone kicked me at the back, confronted me, heard my part and said sorry. i NEVER said my apologies because there is nothing to apologized for.
11. when i was still 4-8 years old, my brother and cousins don't like me because i was very spoiled, especially to my daddy and lolo.
12. i think that cockroaches should not exist in this beautiful world.
13. i was called "basurera" by my mommy and titas, simply because i am very sentimental, i keep everything from receipts to candy wrappers.
14. i did something i never imagined myself i would do, 3 from my barkada and 3 from my nursing groupmates only knew about it. - plus my cousin Jans!
15. i have always been the family's good girl and i intend to keep it that way.
16. whenever i get a pimple, i feel that i should stay in the house.
17. rainbows never fail to amazed me! :)
18. i'd rather have things brandless than having fake ones.
19. i have been wearing a pair of pearl earrings since i was in 3rd year highschool. i love classic stuff.
20. i adore my job, i like what i do, it keeps me busy and i could not ask for more! :)
21. i can't dance in public but i do dance alone in my room.
22. travelling, either a road trip or an airplane ride will always be my comfort.
23. i talk very much and i have never ending stories only to people i am close with.
24. family get-togethers and childhood stories are my solace.
25. i only read recommended books and i do judged them by its cover.
my ass was not eyeing so much on the board exam results because of my daily itineraries in the office. i am currently happily busy working and all.. but today was different! i have known that i will NOT have those 2 additional letters almost everyone of us, nursing graduates is hoping to gain this month. yes! i did NOT pass the board exam..
i was at Chippens, Roxas with a client and my kapwa-account executive when i knew about the results. i was okay at first, well i thought i am going to be.. until my good friend, one of those people who loves to baby me and have seen my worst and best, maycelle (to MAYCE: thank you very much for hearing me out! for being patient, for letting me cry.. for telling me i am strong.. for being there! for being sad for me even if you really passed! congratulations by the way! i am proud of you! very much..) - ..and i talked over the phone for almost 30 minutes.. so okay! i cried myself like a child in front of my colleague and a client.. and i was embarrassed! i did not know how to get away.. but i was glad that i was still able to..
i met up with tita eyen, she saw me crying with my-oh-so-puffy-big-round-eyes.. i saw tears from her eyes almost coming out as she saw mine streaming down my face.. somehow i don't want to be comforted.. i don't even want to see anyone at that very moment.. we had a short chat because i still have to do something for the office.. after my must-finish-to-do, i met up with omar, paul, mayce, carla and nik (half passed, half did NOT) i did not do what i should do for this day.. simply because it felt that i can't anymore.. i stayed with my classmates for a while but left to meet up with tita jo..
i saw tita jo from afar with her puffy eyes tOo! i knew at that moment that she cried for me earlier that day.. and that what pains me the most! i hate the feeling that i disappointed them.. though they did not admit anything.. i know that i am hurting them for not making it!
comforting words were flowing and a celebration for tito don, who is now an RN followed.. we ate dinner at Ranchero's (it felt that today was more of a celebration, more than anything else which was a great thing!) with tita jo, tito don, kuya louie, ate princess, tito elmo, tita lorie, tita nilda, tita reena and omar.. i was still gloomy but i was trying.. still trying to be okay..
then another tito don's treat at Casa de Amigos! for more drinking, eating and kwentos from what we left off at Ranchero's, and this time with tita eyen..
i am a little worried that people may label me for not passing the NLE but i am confident to say that i can't be judged by one test..
"there are so many things to be thankful for.. God loves us very much that He prepares us before the storm.. count your blessings.. you have a job.. love what you have right now" - tita eyen and tita jojo's words that somehow lifted up my spirit! they said that there are many RNs there who are desperately looking for a career and since i have mine, i should be grateful for it. i am actually grateful, it just that i want to be both an executive and a registered nurse. i guess, i just can't really have everything i WANT in life.. FOR NOW..
my family encouraged me to take again.. but i don't know yet if i am going to take the june-july or the november again this year.. it is still too early to decide on this..
another great matter was proved tonight(morning! time check - 3:10am)! that i always got one of the best things in life, the most important thing.. my priority.. my life! the number one thing that i am most thankful for.. MY FAMILY! imagine, tita jo promised me an all day shopping for NOT making the NLE! (crazy huh?), tita eyen gave me money for being sad, kuya louie promised me a shopping-after-work this wednesday, tito elmo gave me a good amount of money and i got all the encouraging words, cheer-me-up comforts, support, hugS, kisses and love from my family..
oh well, the following days will be a nightmare for me.. this i am sure.. telling people and answering their questions that i did not make it.. knowing for a fact that i am going to be hard on myself for the following days.. hurting and crying more.. thinking what could have beens.. which i know is pretty much normal for somebody who wasn't accepted for something.. but still i am proud to say that i am already on the depression state right now.. skipping denial, anger and bargaining is already an accomplishment! whew! give me more days and hopefully i'll triumph over even the acceptance part! HAHA! mind setting here i come!
to cut a long story short, despite the predicament i am in.. you will STILL be seeing me smiling parateee! ..and thanking God for everything!
..and to everyone who passed the NLE November 2008 - CONGRATULATIONS!!! especially to my bestfriends - teetaykins, miAmingming and dydychinks! i am so proud of you guys! congrats also to my classmates, schoolmates and batchmates! do well and God Bless! :)
as my newly everyday routine, i went to our office this morning to comply for my requirements.. and from the office i had to go to San Pedro Hospital to give the letter which will allow me to take the required written exam (february 16, monday is the given schedule).. amazingly, out of all the many people in Davao City, i found a friend, Ernest Chua working at one nurses' station in San Pedro Hospital! "huy ms. Aboitiz" (thanks Chua ha? naganahan ako! HAHA!..) he pointed which building and which floor should i go.. in short i was lost.. as i was walking towards the building they called "MAB" (i forgot what it stands for).. i found another friend, wearing a pink long sleeves, a black slacks, a pair of leather shoes and a black Swiss messenger bag waiting for a doctor.. "huy Jim!" oh yes! it was Mr. Jim Lombiso.. aba! Med Rep na siya! he thought that i was also a Med Rep.. HAHA! we had a short chat and enjoyed laughing our ass off thinking that we are already hired and working! plus our outfits made everything real! but mine was waaaaay better! it was just a formal-casual outfit! pero si Jim! very different, so professional..
the thought that my AdDU highschool batchmates (including me) are already occupied with work is such a great sight.. but a little heartbreaking.. because it made me feel so old and not-so-me! hehe.. completion of my preemployment documents (SSS, PagIbig, NBI clearance, Phil Health and etc. - oh yes! i do have these now! HAHA!) is such an excellent feeling.. like a picture priceless moment! i feel proud and mature at the same time.. HAHA!
i know that as days will pass.. i won't be too available anymore.. won't even have time to blog and rant about my thoughts and feelings because of being too preoccupied of work.. i just want to enjoy tonight's mood of how this life's new path is taking me.. everything about it is just so amusing.. and with all these, i am grateful.. much!
special thanks to Mayce! i had fun making kwento with you in our biglaan date! updating each other was down right crazeeey happy! hehe.. and thanks for saying "makatawa ako kc bataon ka parn mxdo"(exact words from Maycelle).. and i'm glad to say that nothing's change.. because between us, nobody really is a grown up! HAHA!
are you a computer course fresh graduate looking for work? preferably female! a JOB awaits you. VISAYAN FORUM FOUNDATION, INC. is interested. (this is for REAL! you can Google and check the website if you want!) Hiring only until this friday. if you know someone i may recommend her. contact me! hurry! sayang rin! if you will be hired, you will undergo training and your starting salary will be P8,000-9,000. this is DAVAO BASED!
speaking of work, here's the company's reply from my essay about my crazy self - "Thank you for your honesty. I will be sending you more questions and I will text you on your cellphone when I have sent it so you can check. Then I may give you a quick call for discussion from my cellphone " - i am so glad i got an immediate reply after sending my resume with photo, transcript of records and my essay! my heart's just jumping for joy right now. i hope they will hire meeeeeeeee.. eeeeh! i can't wait to work! HAPPY! :)
i got an email from one of the people from the company i applied for asking for a crappy essay about myself. OMG! i can make any essay anytime as long as it is not about myself.. to difficult to start.. how can i think of its end?
i'm scared how to start it because it may end up me saying too much of myself, too personal stuff about my life.. or just simply making it informal.. the last time i wrote an essay like this and a very serious one was my application for the Ateneo de Manila University back in 4th year highschool.. which obviously, i didn't get in!
i want to impress this company.. i have to finish this tonight! HELP me self!
at the doctor's clinic (Dr. Romell Bernardo - DDH).. for Danyal's another check-up because of his cough and colds.. i weighed myself and i am happy to find out that i am only 54kls. HAHA! i was kinda expecting around 56kls.-58kls eh.. because of all the eating and drinking from the holiday celebrations.. anyway.. before the month of January ends.. (just waiting for Danyal's yaya) i promise to enroll myself back to Holiday Spa.. i want to be 47kls. again like way back in 2nd year college.. HAHA! *goodluck to me*
to teetaykins: this photo is for you! sabi ko sau noh? nakabihis na ako! i'm ready to go na talaga.. nakatulog lang ako.. sorry! love u!
after 2 days of not logging in.. na sad ako konti despite my accomplishment of the PRC filing.. i feel left out.. kasi wala akong alam sa friends ko.. di na talaga ako updated sa mga whereabouts niyo guys.. makasad pala.. hahay.. inggit ako sa kape-kape niyo with candice.. HAHA! inggitera ako.. alam ko! (hi candz! miss yooooou!)
mommy left already, 4 days ago.. i am now baby Danyal's newest bestfriend.. i am not regretting taking over the responsibility for i can't resist Danyal and yes! he is my baby brother.. i miss you all so much! i really wanted to be with you guys everyday.. and everytime you sent a message through text or Friendster asking if i can go out or how i've been.. i wish you all knew i wish i was with you.. i envy your get-aways.. our almost complete get-togethers.. (sam, you are never forgotten) i hate being busy.. but i love the reason why i am..
i am very sensitive when it comes to my mom.. i always cry talking about her.. and how i miss her everyday.. like the same way i do my whole life.. maybe i can't help to be with Danyal because somehow.. i know that whenever i imitate mommy and pretend that i am her.. he also thought that i am mom.. so somehow.. i am helping him.. i hope i really am..
my last log in status didn't change.. it is still always last 24 hours.. it may seem that i have the time but i don't.. i miss our YM kamustahanS..
update to my papers for the NLE: i have been to Samal and back 3 times.. to Tagum and back for 4 times.. to Digos and back twice.. to Panabo and back twice.. and now just waiting for my Samal, Margas, DMC minors and majors to be release from the office.. my mommy and titaS know about this.. they told me that i should not be pressured, as long as i do everything i can.. and in case i still can't complete everything on time.. then it's God's will for me not to take this December.. i know that i will be left behind by not taking and passing it.. i may not be able to celebrate with you guys like our plans.. but i guess that is just how it is..
teetaykins, dydychinks, miAmingming, pachoOooch and talalalalala! text me always pa rin.. whether be it in my Globe or Sun line ha? update me and invite me always ha?? malay niyo dumating ako.. i love you guys! very much..
shout out to Mr. Bryan Asis: wala ako nakagreet ng happy birthday! i saw your pictures in jans account! you had a great time together as expected.. stay happy yan! ingat always.. happy birthday again! God Bless.. smile parateeee! :)
listening to the reviewer while my head's weight on my right arm, a woman around early 40's, tap my shoulder and asked "where did you buy your braceletS?".. OMG! i was so shocked! i answered saying "from DavCon" and i smiled..
shout out to tita eyen: "tenkyoOoooooooo again for this pasalubong from Singapore.. it is well appreciated.. obviously! ..even by everyone! i didn't tell the lady where it was from kasi mahiya ako and meron almost same nito dun ung binigay ni tita jo which i added rin.. HAHA! ..and just a reminder.. 14 more days to go na lang ha? bday ko na! giiiiiiiiiiiiiiiift.. tell tito elmo tOo.."
3 days to go.. and mommy will be home! i know that this is already a routine but still i am giddy.. much! my hands can't wait to be with my mom's bday giiift! HAHAHA!
arggggh.. oh-it's-this-time-of-the-year-again.. the day that i have waited all year every year.. *aside from Christmas Day*.. this day.. my own Martial Law day.. my bday song.. anticipating.. expecting.. counting.. wishing..
it'll be my 21st this year! i can legally go inside Casino! HAHA! ..and can legally smoke in some countries.. *although i don't have any plans to be a smoker still.. - i just think that it's not cool enough and i love my teeth so much.. hehe!* but being 21 also has its downs.. like i can't be covered in my mom's philhealth anymore.. and yep! i am officially an A-D-U-L-T! my age is greater every year but i am still the same old, the same bataon-spoiled-kulit-sweet boBon to my friends and family! *ok 'nough said! don't complain! this is my rant!*
today! our 10th monthsary! a no-doubt perfect day! a whole day and night get-along together with friends and omar..
i bonded with wiggley dydydy and boinkee after our clinical instructorS searching and OR case schedule follow-up.. i had that simple "tipid-muna-tayo-mahirap-na-buhay-dinner" with biBin at KFC! - HAHA! ..then off to Blugre, Landco with the BEST "bestfriends" in the world - teetaykins, miAmingming and pachooch! [ the always the watchers, never the dancerS group ] ..plus our boys still - biBin, of course and earliloi.. just sharing chikaS and how everyone is so "into" John Lloyd Cruz - that includes all of us! baduuuuuy! 'di kami mapapagod mahalin si John Lloyd! HAHA!
yep! NO pictures.. because it was an unplanned get-together!
going home past 11pm and our "secret" splurge-ing together was F-U-N.. sa uulitin! HAHAHA!
..and to boinkee woinkee! : "you are so superstitious! the number 10 is NOT badluck.. it's just NOT our night! ..2 more months and we'll be celebrating 1.. i love yooooooooooou boinks! oink! oink!"
it was an emergency.. i had to talk with someone comforting.. so i sent a text message to teetay to call me sa landline.. yep! LANDLINE..
we were on the phone for over an hour.. i didn't know if we exceeded 2 hours or so.. but definitely it was more than an hour.. it felt so high school.. and maybe by that feeling alone.. it was already a comfort.. a cheer-up thing!
to my fellow PDA fan, DES - thanks for hearing me out teetaykins.. for the kwentoS, the laughS and for sharing your bum activities.. HAHA! i love you always and the same!
i am on my second day of my review classes for the local board exam for nursing.. and i felt like i am a preschool-er trying to fit in.. *back when i needed somebody to be with me in my official first day of class.. i can so remember mine so well at Philippine Women's College of Davao.. because yes! i was with my mommy! and i was visited by daddy then.. HAHA!*
i miss school.. my classmates.. my ex-classmates.. my schoolmates.. my groupmates.. my friends.. my crushes.. my barkada.. and those people i considered my friends.. or at least i claim them to be mine.. hehe! i miss the familiar faces.. where uhmm.. not everyone yet almost everybody knows you and you know them.. i know this is isn't true.. but it felt like it most of the time eh.. hehe!
i miss "Ateneo".. i have been an Atenean since i was in grade 3.. and from then on.. everything is so cozy in that school.. it is habitual.. recurring.. everyday.. frequent.. i am so at ease.. it is just so home-y! i am played in a repeat like a song.. but not a single whine or protest was heard from me.. aarrrgh! i miss it so badly right now.. i miss my barkada most..
i have been at Glocal Review Center.. this is where i enrolled myself.. as ordered.. and i actually didn't complain about this because even when i was still a 3rd year nursing student.. i already settled my mind that i am going to have my review classes there.. yup! even before i graduated.. there is really nothing wrong with the review center i am in.. it's just that.. i feel so lost there! so lost together with biBin.. hehe!
"LOST"! --> this is such the perfect word to define my existence in that class.. in that building..
to tita jojo.. i so thank you for boosting my will-power.. my self-confidence.. my desire to go on.. not simply because i have no choice.. kasi nakapagenroll na ako.. hehe! but also to prove my being Atenean to nobody.. but to myself.. thanks for everything tits! i really don't have to type all the reasons why i am super thankful.. because i might not be able to finish this urge of blogging! naks! hehe.. basta! i know you know what i mean already.. love you! *wink*
and to Mr. Paul Lara.. HAHA! di ko nakalimutan yung sinabi mong hanapan kita ng chix sa Glocal.. uhmm! *no offense to my kapwa-enrolled students there..* but paul.. wala akong makita that would fit your standards.. hehehe! i know you get me paul.. hehe!
and lastly.. to kuya louie and ate princess.. for introducing me to this song from Jason Mraz.. this is what i always play on repeat everyday.. every morning when i wake up.. and every night before i sleep.. i am so in love with it! ..and i love you both rin!
don't be bitter! you have regrets and they have theirs tOo.. you made mistakes and so did them.. there will always be that fun, happy memories.. yet all can't forget the hurt and pain tOo.. but you should all live with that.. you should all be well with it! each has his/her reasons and stories.. just be thankful because at one point or another.. whatever you both had been through.. that person had been a part of you.. you were all once "together"..
"as long as u can still see yourself with the person in the future (being happy, living both you dreams together) you should hold on.." -kuyawa dyud ng mga lines mo bryan oie! biliiiib! kudos to yanyan!
i had a talk with mom the other day.. she said her Pinay friends in Japan said that i look like a taiwainese.. Oh my Gulay! i am Pinay! and some friends of biBoink asked him if i was "instik" daw.. i am not uyy! maybe because my eyes are pa-cute when i smile! HAHA! my lola, "mama" has a chinese blood though.. her original middle name is - li chat ko.. basta uyy! maybe i got a little chinese-y blood from mama.. hehe! just like tita eyen and ate kaye who were also mistaken chinese in our family..
anyway.. speaking of beauty.. i read an article in a magazine.. a May 2003 issue of Preview about beauty.. it was not shocking at all.. it was like a bitaw-noh-tama-talaga article.. they were presenting how girls, ladies.. women conform with the society's definition of beauty.. how puti and payat is always.. uhmm.. will always be beautiful..
"being beautiful" is one of the most successful businesses in the industry.. every whitening, darkening, enhancing, softening, smoothening, toning, tweezing, waxing, bleaching, straightening, perming and so on and so on is very saleable.. women today, sacrificed a lot.. and still are sacrificing just to fit in to the standards..
according to the article, when you feel pain everytime you get your armpit waxed or your feet feels pain when you wear your 2-inch stilletos.. or even that simple ballet flats that is responsible for the marks and blisters that are very visible on both your foot.. it connotes suffering.. and many of us are suffering for the sake of beauty.. [ every girl had gone from beauty innocent to a beauty martyr - the exact words used in the magazine.. HAHA! so true! so true! ] ..additional kudos! i also agree that despite all the pain, blood and time it felt good.. because nobody is alone in this physical and mental suffering.. just to become B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! most of us are guilty to be one talaga.. a very fine article! so cool.. i was able to read this because.. right now, i am busy doing my cut-outs for my cabinet doors - my SUMMER project! by the way it is almost finish..
anyhow.. i still believe that no matter how ugly an object is.. it is not actually ugly.. for any form it maybe, PERSPECTIVE can make it beautiful.. will make it beautiful.. for what is beauty for me may not always be beautiful to everybody.. and vice versa..
i am liking this song so much! ..listen and smile!
