sometimes.. i still miss.. miss the good ol' days! you know.. that status that almsot everybody thinks is.. i don't know how to described it.. basta! it has been tagged with many names already.. i have been vocal about this.. we both know.. anyway.. despite it! i am happy! yet i know i can't be always.. and today.. i am not..
i did my morning routine walk today.. as usual.. my from-house-to-kanto-walk.. my only daily exercise.. i saw a small dog.. and guess whaat??! i thought it was my RED.. i'm still looking for him.. and i still do miss him.. and i was again disappointed to find out that it wasn't him..
i arrived at school the same way i always do.. my i ain't happy nor sad face.. my expressionless face.. until i saw my groupmates/classmates.. and again, the usual.. i smile.. and started our morning with chikas while waiting for our clinical instructor to arrive..
i realized after that.. that i am missing mommy.. despite her annoying meticulous self that loves to citicized everything probably because of her boredom and the baby she carries.. i miss her.. i just miss her.. and i wonder a lot how she's doing now..
i wonder a lot.. it's not good.. it makes me worry.. i asked.. i always do..i asked a lot.. i don't know why do i always have to ask.. 'cause you know.. after hearing the answers.. it doesn't change anything.. the thoughts.. they are still there..
when will i label it N-O-T-H-I-N-G??? thoughts.. so many.. i guess i never learned.. and i am still learning..
tomorrow hopefully will be different.. it has to be different..
worrying is stealing my happiness! damn it!
boBon
